get over it

sometimes I will look at pictures of others and I feel bad about myself. like "dang her hair is perfect, why isnt mine perfect? I suck at being a girl" and then I pause and I realize that that person probably spent a good 1 hour - 1 1/2 hours just on their hair alone and then I picture myself sleeping in my warm, big, comfy bed for that extra hour...and I get over it.

yesssssss

sometimes I look at a girls face and think "dang her makeup is amazing, why cant my makeup look that amazing" and then i realize that her makeup is probably hundreds of dollars, maybe not at once, but accumulated, and then i picture all that scrapbooking paper i could buy... and i get over it.


sometimes i see posts of flowers that the boyfriend sent and i think "dang i wish michael sent me flowers" and then i realize he does and even when he doesn't he does some other sweet things like clean out ellas diaper genie or warm the car up for me...and i get over it

sometimes i look at skinny girls, and i think "dang i want to be that skinny" and then i realize that those girls (for the most part) rarely eat dessert, or chocolate, or bread and then i try to picture my life without dessert, or chocolate, or bread..and i literally cant...so i get over it

take that!


sometimes i see the houses people own and i think "dang i would like a house" and then i realize that i will have one someday and then i picture myself graduating from college... and i get over it.

sometimes i see really really cute clothes and i think "dang i wish i had money so i could show people how cute my style is" and then i realize that the world is simply unfair...and i trrry to get over it...but it is hard because i like cute clothes

one day!


sometimes i look at the success of some of my acquaintances and i think "dang why cant i be that successful" or "why didnt i do that" and then i realize that most of those people had the time and probably didnt have a job and then i picture me working, and going to school, and doing homework, and taking care of ella, and teaching sunday school, and leading study groups, and trying to clean the house, and being a wife...and then i realize that i am successful...and i get over it

the moral of the story is that sometimes i am really envious of some other peoples lives and then i realize that i might not have money or a house or great hair or perfect makeup. but for the most part i feel pretty good about myself and i need to realize that i am sacrificing now so that i can have a better future. and even though i would love to be a mom that can stay at home with her babies and worry about decorations or do hobbies i just cant do that right now. and then i realize that getting an education will give me options, will be a good example for ella, and will give me a better life...and i get over it :)